God, I can relate to this. I'm currently in the depths, too, right now, in the grasp of the pain monster. Scared to move for fear of angering it. It's such a toxic relationship. Allowing myself rest is still something I'm working on, but that's a whole different monster.
Thank you so much for sharing this, and for your beautiful music. I love what I've heard so far.
I’m so sorry you’re in it right now. I know that grip all too well. The fear of provoking more pain, the twisted negotiation with your own body… it really is like a toxic relationship. And yeah, resting without guilt feels like its own battleground. Thank you for your kind words, and for being here. I’m holding space for you in the depths. ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
I'm so sorry you deal with this too. I'm grateful for the way you've described your experiences. They resonate with mine. I read something that changed my relationship with my pain. It was a mindfulness technique in which I let go of the word "pain" - or any other defining label - and simply focus into the sensations. Separating them in this way (when I can get there) rather miraculously makes the sensations more bearable and the intensity seemed to abate more quickly. Also my anxiety about the "pain" is reduced, which seems to also contribute to de-escalation.
Thank you so much for sharing this! I’m really moved by your insight. That practice of letting go of the word pain and just tuning into sensation is so powerful. I’ve noticed too how language can amplify the emotional charge of what I’m feeling. When I can drop the narrative, there’s sometimes a softness that opens up. Grateful to be in this conversation with you.
God, I can relate to this. I'm currently in the depths, too, right now, in the grasp of the pain monster. Scared to move for fear of angering it. It's such a toxic relationship. Allowing myself rest is still something I'm working on, but that's a whole different monster.
Thank you so much for sharing this, and for your beautiful music. I love what I've heard so far.
I’m so sorry you’re in it right now. I know that grip all too well. The fear of provoking more pain, the twisted negotiation with your own body… it really is like a toxic relationship. And yeah, resting without guilt feels like its own battleground. Thank you for your kind words, and for being here. I’m holding space for you in the depths. ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
Thank you so much 💜 You seem like such a kind soul, which feels increasingly rare these days.
I'm so sorry you deal with this too. I'm grateful for the way you've described your experiences. They resonate with mine. I read something that changed my relationship with my pain. It was a mindfulness technique in which I let go of the word "pain" - or any other defining label - and simply focus into the sensations. Separating them in this way (when I can get there) rather miraculously makes the sensations more bearable and the intensity seemed to abate more quickly. Also my anxiety about the "pain" is reduced, which seems to also contribute to de-escalation.
Thank you so much for sharing this! I’m really moved by your insight. That practice of letting go of the word pain and just tuning into sensation is so powerful. I’ve noticed too how language can amplify the emotional charge of what I’m feeling. When I can drop the narrative, there’s sometimes a softness that opens up. Grateful to be in this conversation with you.
I'm grateful too! Shared pain makes it slightly more bearable.